2013 has been an amazing year for me. I turned forty, and love it. I was able to fulfill one of my “bucket list” dreams of going to South Africa. I was blessed to have another year with my family and friends. I got my “happy back” after losing my Dad in 2010. There are just so many things that I’m grateful for, that the list is endless. But, I must say with all of the things, people, and opportunities. I’m most grateful for learning how to let go.
Letting go is so hard. Especially, when you’re used to being in control. When you’re always in control, every move is calculated to ensure you get the best outcome. It’s like a never-ending chess game. But, really all you are doing is blocking yourself from moving to the next level. You don’t realize that’s what you’re doing. You fool yourself into thinking that you are doing what you are supposed to do to get ahead. Or, you tell yourself “God told you to move”. But, that is probably not the case. Especially, since you haven’t sat still long enough to hear what he wants you to do. When you’re trying to control the outcomes of your life, you make permanent decisions in temporary situations because you are just reacting. You are reacting to your surroundings and what people tell you to do. You forget that you have the highest authority on your side. All you have to do is go to him in prayer, and be willing to shut up and listen.
I was that person. Well, I still am that person. I’m just in “rehab” . I always was concerned about what other people thought of me. But, I’ve learned that life is too short to not live authentically. I’m not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s okay. The people who God wants in my life will be there. It’s all about understanding that this life is not our design; it’s God’s design. He is the only one truly in control, and the sooner we let him have his way in our lives, the better it will be.
I’m a Caregiver, Daughter, Sister, Friend, Counselor, Cook, Chauffeur, etc. My list of jobs seems endless, and stresses me out just thinking about it. But, then I remember God will never give me more than I can bear. He always has my back, and that sustains me to press another day. Also, shopping, working out, a massage, and glass of wine don’t hurt either :).
God reminds me that if I just give him my load, he’ll carry it. We can’t carry it together, and that’s the biggest lesson I’ve learned this year. I had to let go, in order to move forward in my life, career, and relationships.
So, that’s how I started blogging. I wanted to let go of the challenges in life that frustrated me, and I wanted to live authentically and be open about my life. I pray that you are encouraged, and I thank God for the ability to let go and share. Live completely and authentically! Until we meet again