If there is one thing that’s certain, it’s that I have not cornered the market on heartbreak and pain. There have been, and will be many people that have been hurt by love. It’s the one thing that’s consistently going to be the most sought after feeling in this world. It’s also one of the things, I have not been able to acquire. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been in love. But, I’ve never been engaged or married. That’s pretty rare for someone my age. I’m forty, so people always expect a husband and a tribe of kids to be around me :). But, that’s not how my life has gone. No husband and no kids.
I used to struggle with that. I’ve always wanted to be married and have children. I had my life planned out, like so many other women. However, I’ve come to learn God can have different plans. Sometimes, you have children another way (e.g. through marriage, etc.), or you have a sixty-six year old mom that acts like a two-year old, and a thirty-five year sister old that acts like a sixteen year-old :). So, I’m covered on the children part for now. A husband, that’s a different story.