Out of The Fog
Wow, I feel like a stranger to my own blog. I can’t believe it’s been so long since I’ve checked in. But, I’ve been “checked out” for so long, that I wasn’t sure when I was going to be able to come back.
I was feeling overwhelmed by everything. I was struggling trying to balance work, finances, family, and me. That’s the typical “caregiver struggle”. But, this time it just became too much. I started feeling trapped. I felt like nothing I did was going to be able to help me. I knew in my mind that wasn’t true. But, I just didn’t have the “energy” to fight. Have you ever felt that way?
So, I just “existed”. I went to work, took care of my family, tried to take care of me. I became a “spectator” versus an active participant. It’s amazing what you can do on autopilot.
Luckily, my close friends could tell that I wasn’t myself. They gave me a sympathetic ear, and a boost of encouragement to “come back”. They have no idea how much that meant to me. Sometimes all you need is a little kindness to see your way through the “fog”.
As caregivers, we rarely ask for the help we need. We’re just too focused on making it through the day. But, we need support. We need someone to love us, when we forget how to love ourselves. That’s how we slip into the “fog.”
We forget that there will always be bills. There will always be jobs. There will always be people and situations that pull at us. But, we still have to make time to take care of ourselves. Our sanity is very precious and fragile.
I forgot how fragile I am. I forgot that I need peace and relaxation to be at my best. So, I got lost in the “fog”. But, I’m coming back J. I have many stories to share about my “journey.”
I hope you’ll come along for the ride, and share your journey with me!
Until we meet again (I promise very soon !!)
Hugs and Kisses